everyday life

I had one of those dreams last night. The kind where life is different, not necessarily better or worse, just... different.

It was kind of crazy in that it was very extensive. There was a whole through story line, complete with memories. And, it wasn't really eventful, it was like a regular normal life.

I was at a family reunion of some kind with my boyfriend, someone I definitely don't know in real life. (He was big, well muscled big, shaved head, tattoos, etc.) My dad didn't really like him, and the rest of my family wasn't sure what to think of him. These weren't things that were said, or even made issue of, they were things that I just knew. We had had some kind of disagreement, and we were talking about it, half apologizing to each other. I was in his arms and looking at him, sort of unsure if I was done being irritated. And he told me I'd make it up to him, in a somewhat amused suggestive kind of way. Then he made some kind of comment to my family. It wasn't bad, but I was embarrassed, and went back to being irritated. After dinner we got in a car to go somewhere. My cousin was driving and she said something about how lucky he and I were to have each other. I told her if she were dating him she might not be so sure, and he just laughed.

See. Not better, not worse, just different.

Well, maybe a little less lonely.

I'm not dealing well with regular life today.