...and I remember me, and I remember us, then. (Even if "us" only existed in my head.)
My experiences with men have been dismal as of late. In an effort to remember happier things I offer you my "Boys" playlist. Enjoy. I certainly did. Still do.
Hip Hop Hooray - Naughty By Nature
Being driven to school nearly every day of my sophomore and junior year by the boy I was completely in love with. And his best friend, who makes a point to harass me about it if and when I ever run into him.
Closer - Nine Inch Nails
Metropolis, once upon a time, when a cute boy danced with me and took my breath away. This was the first song we danced to.
Ditty - Paperboy
Back To The Hotel - N2Deep
The last songs we laughed at and danced to at his place before I lost my virginity.
Say Goodbye - Dave Matthews Band
Played for me in a dorm room in Duluth. If only I had actually caught the meaning...
I Would Die 4 U - Prince
In memory of the same boy as above. He helped me rediscover my love for Prince and the two will forever be linked in my head.
What I Got - Sublime
Too much to say on this one. Years of wanting what I couldn't have, getting what I wanted and wanting more, never getting it right but not willing to let it go. Sleeping together but not dating, going on dates when we weren't sleeping together... This one was my devil and could easily have led to my undoing.
Sex And Candy - Marcy Playground
A goal that took me a year to accomplish. Losing your friends at a party isn't always a bad thing... "So, how much do you love me and how much did you miss me?"
"Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness" - Smashing Pumpkins
I never was a big Pumpkins fan, still not really, but it made an interesting soundtrack to crazy, monkey sex.
7 Days - Craig David
The funny thing is, the guy this song reminds me of would absolutely hate it. He was much more of a Tool fan. But the song came out right around then and is pretty much dead on as far as the timeline for our... whatever it was. I broke a lot of stuff the first time he walked into the bar.
You Can Call Me Al - Paul Simon
No need to worry about confusing names when you date two in a row.
High Enough - Damn Yankees
One drunken night I was told I was beautiful, and was treated that way. I woke up in his arms with this song stuck in my head. That whole relationship was an experiment in drunken sex, but this stands out as a bright, if odd, moment.
Red Rain - Peter Gabriel
"So" was the soundtrack to the best date I've ever had, with one of the two men that I would have given anything to, if I could have only figured out how to do it without feeling like I would have lost myself. I think of him as the angel half. This one though... I think if he ever asked it would be hard to not run.
Don't Stop 'Til You Get Enough - Michael Jackson
Dedicated to the very attractive, and very good smelling man who danced with me at a club one night when I wasn't sure I could make it in LA. Don't know his name, never saw him again, and never did more than dance to this song, but it made me feel good about myself again.
Musicology - Prince
The one Prince album that doesn't belong to the guy from college. Instead it will always remind me of the big, scary, tattooed, Raider fan who went to see this show with me, and grinned like a small child on Christmas the entire time.
Me Myself and I - De La Soul
Same guy as above. I remember this playing in service bar while we made out in the walk-in.
Wrapped Around Your Finger - The Police
For the one I haven't met yet. I'm waiting. Move your ass!
